What a good weekend!

Ok, so I finally realize that I'm not superwoman and I need to just relax and chill a bit but I haven't found much time for just taking it easy over the last two weeks. It's been very busy once again but it's also been very fun as well.

Last Saturday was the Komen St. Louis Race for the Cure. It was year two of participation for M and S and I and it all truly hit home this year. S is going through a second stint with breast cancer and we have tried to do whatever we can to support her and help her through it. It was definitely bittersweet to see all of the participants in the survivor t-shirts because for every survivor that was there, there are dozens more that are not well enough right now to even make it out to an event like that one and many more that have not survived the horrific illness.

Sunday was Father's Day and I tried to make it a good day for both my dad and my step-dad. My awesome bro called me earlier in the week and told me that he was going to bar-b-que for our dad and that I was invited out for the shindig, so I decided to go over and cook my step-dad breakfast and then head out to my dad's for the rest of the afternoon. And let me tell you...that was probably one of the most memorable times I have out there since my dad moved into his house! My bro and I grilled corn on the cob, pork steaks, bratwursts and homemade cheeseburgers from my bro's special recipe. We made a feast and had a lot of fun doing so. In fact, my dad was thrilled that both of us were out working together and cooking while he got to watch the Nascar race and the US Open.

The week went by in a blur again. Tuesday night after work, M and I sat on her deck and had a few beers and just tried to unwind from the crazy day we had. Plus, it was such a pretty night out so it would have been a waste to just come home and sit inside and do nothing. It's definitely nice to have a friend that knows almost exactly what you're going through at work and in your personal life and the support helps tremendously. Friday after our extremely crazy week ended, M, S and I decided that it was time to hit the town so we went to Casa for happy hour and then drove to the river and went to one of the seasonal bars in the boonies. We met a few more friends out there and had a great time just socializing and cracking jokes...many of them towards the band that was not very good. Usually the band determines the kind of evening we have at a place, but we still managed to have fun anyway. However one thing I know for sure... I will not be within 5 miles of the band that we heard because that was not pretty!

Saturday night Joe and I went to the Arch Rival Roller Girls bout here in St. Louis. I have been intrigued by the new women's flat track roller derby since the bout in Chicago and I hadn't seen the St. Louis teams in action so I thought that since I was actually free one night when they were having a bout that I would check it out. Joe was nice enough to invite me along with him so we were able to hang out just like old times. The Smashinistas beat the Stunt Devils but it was a close night and while these girls are not as experienced as the Chicago and Seattle teams I've seen there is a lot of potential there and I can tell that they are serious about the game. Hopefully I'll get to go to the next bout in July...we'll see if I can get anyone to go with me to that one.

And finally, up to today....today has been a great day! My bro and Magen (his gf) came over and visited me on the Mo side and we had a blast. I helped him get some loan stuff organized for school in the fall and then we went to the Mills to walk around for a bit and just hang out. There were a few things that he was looking to buy and because we have gotten so serious about our grilling since the week before, I was looking for a hamburger patty mold to make our special recipe patties a little easier. We both found what we were looking for and after a jog around the mall a few times we left to go have a late lunch at Red Lobster. As most of my friends can tell you, that is one of my most favorite places to eat and I was so glad that Ryan and Magen wanted to go there. I thought Josh was the only other person I knew that didn't mind going there every time I asked! We came back to my apartment and chilled and downloaded some of my bro's CDs to my computer so I could sync them up to my Ipod. My bro thought I needed some good music on my Ipod and I'm grateful that he let me borrow his CDs so that I could add them. Thanks a bunch Bro...you are the most awesome brother ever!!! And my weekend went out with a bang!

I'm not sure what this weekend has in store for me yet. Month end is on Friday so I'm sure my head will be spinning by the time I leave Friday night. But as always, I will make the best of it and get through it all! Hope every one has a great week! Enjoy this great summer time weather!

Something's gotta give....

I believe I'm slowly starting to go crazy and I'm not exactly sure why. There is not one specific thing I can pinpoint as the problem right now. Usually I can blame something on work, but right now I'm working less hours at work than I ever have before, yet I believe everything is just getting to me and I'm just too demanding for my own good.

On a personal level...I believe everything is ok. Things are not perfect, but I guess since I haven't heard anything bad, I should assume that things are just moving along alright. Really, I think I just need a stiff drink and a night of dancing with my friends. It seems like when I'm out on the dance floor and listening to music I have no cares in the world, which is the complete opposite of my normal super high maintenance personality.

It's funny that I realize what I need to do to change, but I just can't give myself that little bit of wiggle room. Maybe I can do some very important thinking over the weekend and get everything straightened out and maybe I will finally come to the conclusion that I'm not super-woman...no matter how hard I try. Hope everyone has a good weekend!